I have started reading Lies Women Believe and the Truth that Sets Them Free by Nancy Leigh DeMoss. So far I really like it. It is amazing how sneaky Satan can be. It has already revealed to me so much. One of the quotes that really struck me is about God's love. So often we are faced with the world that tells us God doesn't love you if He did He wouldn't... well the truth is that "He loves me-because He is love. His love for me is not based on anything I have ever done or ever could do for Him. It is not based on my performance. I do not deserve His love and could never earn it." So many times I find myself doubting God's love for me because of the past sins/mistakes I have made. I am beginning to get a better handle on the fact that God loves me just because I'm me. That thought is so comforting and amazing it made me cry this morning. (Granted I am very emotional right now :) ) How crazy and awesome is that, there is nothing I can do that will ever make Him love me less or more. I don't have to compete for His love...it's just there.
There was also a quote from Hannah Whitall Smith that summarizes the greatness of His love..."Put together all the tenderest love you know, the deepest you have ever felt, and the strongest that has ever been poured out upon you, and heap it upon all the love of all the loving human hearts in the world, and then multiply it by infinity, and you will begin , perhaps, to have some faint glimpse of what the love of God is." Now if that isn't love I don't know what is.
I am really beginning to see God's fingerprints in all of my trials. I may not like going through them(okay let's be honest it stinks). But Hebrew 12:10 tells us that God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in His holiness. I pray God will give me the strength and encouragement I need. I know He will because there isn't anything He can't handle, but it's hard to let everything go.